i\u2019ve done three tarot card readings and the advice is always unaffordable \/ i figured if flowers love my mom as much as she loves them then they might be able to heal me \/ so i tell myself that one day i\u2019ll drive three hours to Duluth and stop at a sunflower field halfway there \/ as a challenge i won\u2019t take pictures.<\/p>\n
i know fate exists, because my mom was telling me about her best friend from before i was born and how she wishes they kept in touch \/ <\/strong>i realized that she is the same woman who talked to me every day at our Kathak classes last summer and who added me to a dance group chat \/ as of last week, they\u2019re friends again so i know the stars are on our side \/ since the universe is in charge, we don\u2019t take credit for our good deeds and we don\u2019t take the blame for our bad \/ there is comfort in this.<\/p>\n now when i drive, i notice patches of purple, white, and yellow weeds on the sides of roads \/ if my heartrate starts increasing, i focus on the colors \/ weeds are pretty too and each time, i tell myself i\u2019ll stop and take pictures of them \/ or i\u2019ll lay all the way back so they surround my face in a selfie \/ if i use HUJI, I can remember how powerful the sun is, as i watch the app pick up streaks of light and scatter them across the flowers.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" i\u2019ve done three tarot card readings and the advice is always unaffordable \/ i figured if flowers love my mom…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":382,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[65190],"tags":[348,65194],"class_list":["post-158","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-quarantine-preface","tag-poetry","tag-sonia-sukumar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/158","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/382"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=158"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/158\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":159,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/158\/revisions\/159"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=158"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=158"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.goucher.edu\/preface\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=158"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}